Ranting
Monday, March 21, 2011
Life is unfair. You put someone first who puts you second. You study your ass off for an 'A' but still get a 'B'. You give a 110% in a relationship to someone when they only give 40%. You are there for your bestfriend at 3am when they needed you the most. And the next day, they won't pick up their phone. You care so much for someone who does not care enough about you to say hi even once. You give someone your time and they give you 'Sorry, I'm busy'. It seems like you're giving everyone your everything and they're just walking away and giving you back nothing.
TVXQ - Shine
Friday, March 18, 2011
주책없이 눈물부터 나는 걸 벌써 너를 찾아가는 걸
넌 이제 나를 잊어 가는데 왜 난 그러지 못할까
Short update. Gonna go back to schl later for mediaenterprise camp. Not staying overnight though, ah. I don't feel like going at all :( Have to go back to school at 8am tmwr again. I want to sleep more, my one week holiday feels like it has been only one day. Seriously having not enough rest yet, homeworks still undone. Great job.
Superjunior M - Love is Sweet
Saturday, March 12, 2011
And then I felt sad bcus I realised that once people are broken in certain ways, they can never be fixed and this is something nobody ever tells you when you were young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older and see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it has already happened.
March Holidays, otl. Have no idea whether I should be happy about the huge workload or the fact that I have to return to schl for 4 days. I planned to complete all my homework before Wednesday, so at least I get to enjoy for the remaining days before school starts once again..
Nothing much happened during the past week. I completed my 2.4 run without stopping at all thanks to Xinying ♥ Hah, School has been boring. Sometimes it feels good when nobody notices me, while at other times all I wish for is that people would start noticing me and letting me join it. Is it just me, or am I wearing an invisibility cloak?
Anyway, let's just all pause for a moment and pray for the victims of the earthquake and tsunami that happened in Japan and other parts of the world k. It's devastating knowing that in just mere seconds everything you held so dearly in your life is gone, everything you have been working so hard for is destroyed, everyone you loved and cared for isn't gonna be there anymore. I really should not be complaining about my life when there are millions of people facing problems 100x worst than mine. #PrayfortheWorld. Feeling helpless, there's nothing I can do to help those people, all I can do rn is just to sit right here praying that everything will be fine soon.
Lord heal our land. Father heal our land.
Forgive our sins and heal our broken land…
Kim Soohyun - Dreaming
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
You sometimes think you want to disappear, but all you really want is to be found. Valerie needs to stop worrying about everything. Valerie needs to learn how to relax. Valerie needs to breathe. Valerie needs a break. Valerie needs to understand that absolutely nothing good can come out of overthinking things. Valerie needs to know that letting go is better than maintaining control. Valerie needs to realise that everyone feels like everyone else just not at the same time..
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Changmin - Confession
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Back, hah. CT1 is finally over, but guess what a few more weeks and midyears will be starting soon huh. It's funny how we can finally take a break and breathe but all of a sudden, we get busy again. Hmm, life goes on and on, it seems like we can never get a chance to really stop, take a look around us to appreciate everything and everyone. I guess I'm just exhausted, today's one of those days when I feel sad for no apparent reason hm. It's weird how life keeps moving on, bringing us forward even though we aren't prepared for whats in front of us.
"Some people may have hurt us deeply - and really aren't looking for forgiveness. This makes forgiveness extremely difficult and painful. In some cases, forgiving others doesn't guarantee you will have a good relationship with that person - or should even be around them. But even if forgiveness doesn't change that person - it does change you for the better in your heart." -- Something that I've read from my quiet time. This really made me think about all the times Jesus forgives even when we don't deserve it and remembering all the times I had let Him down. Cause learning to extend the gift of forgiveness to someone who hurts you, whether or not they apologise, will benefit you for the rest of your life.
Since I will be spending my entire Saturday at home, I really should start off my day right :)
